So all of my friends are reading the 50 Shades of Grey series. My coworker went and bought the paperbacks, so I could start the series, while she finishes them on her Kindle.

My coworkers RAVED about the books, comparing them to crack. I found out they were "erotic romance", and couldn't help but laugh. These women sound like 50s housewives!!! Repressed and all.

I thumbed through the book to get a glimpse of the juicy sex scenes to find out that the book is a tale between a Dom and his sub. Well, well, well!! My coworkers and their crack!!! Poor kids-they think BDSM is new and uncharted territory. Lol.

I'm on chapter 18. It's not crack for me. I guess maybe I'm just asexual these days or far too reality based, but give me my vampires, monsters or something that IS completely far-fetched. A hot, young, well-built, filthy rich, dark, mysterious, over-sexed Dom who wants a 22 year old college graduate virgin is just TOO FAKE of a story line for my taste. NOT REALISTIC.

Also the author is a Brit and insists on the Seattle-ites sounding British. Then she throws in ridiculous slang that NO young American uses now. "Laters, baby"??? Maybe if you're 15, not pseudo professional and 20 something. And no woman says "oh my!!" at every sexual innuendo. Plus the "scenes" are poorly written. Hell, I used to write better erotica in this journal than the author. Lawd.

Ugh. Yeah. This book is annoying me. I'm gonna stick it out, then bust all of my coworkers for not having a better home fantasy life. Lmao.

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...and Happy Easter/Happy Sunday/Happy Day to you all!



(132.6 lbs down in less than a year. Wearing size 12 jeans now. Almost out of plus sizes, altogether. Weird.)

( Before and now )

Hit a big goal last night. 102.8 lbs lost, for those of you who don't have Facebook.

I really feel fantastic. I'm back to doing something I've always absolutely loved---dance!! Yes, I danced when I was almost 350 lbs, but had no stamina and my technique was garbage. I am now dancing at least 3 times a week, and on Mondays and Tuesdays--3 hours at a time. I take a hip hop class, Zumba, burlesque and also do an abs class twice a week.

I have gone from being on 4 blood pressure meds (since I was 22 years old), to being on 2. I am able to run and move without feeling like I'm dying. I was not healthy at the weight I was. I have always longed to be active, but just physically couldn't. This was NEVER about being "skinny" or buying smaller clothes or being "hot". I was amazingly stylish wearing a 26/28. This was always about my health and activity level.

I have a sort-of goal weight of 180. According to several docs, this would be a healthy weight for me, considering I'm 6 foot. I have less than 65 lbs left to go to meet this mark. I would like to be at goal by my anniversary date of April 13, when I started this!

I'll add some pics later, because obviously this app won't allow me.

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My name is Liz and I'm a food addict.

Yeah, it doesn't make me happy, but I have to deal with it head on. Getting the opportunity to join Weight Watchers has thrown me into the task of getting sober. (My wonderful brother is paying for my membership).

How do I get sober from food and how do I know that I'm a food addict? This is something I've been thinking about LONG before Oprah or Ruby started talking about it.

There is obviously SOMETHING wrong with my thinking, as in any addict. I wake up THINKING about food...not because my stomach is growling and my body is telling me, "I need to eat." I think about food like it is my next fix. What can I eat that is yummy/scrumptious that will make me happy. Food MAKES me excited. All of my friend outings with my closest friends ALWAYS revolve around where we are going to eat (sorry, gals, I'm revealing our secrets). It's DEFINITELY NOT a "I need to eat to live thing." Unfortunately for me, I live in a part of the world where food is revered and we "live to eat."

My addiction goes WAY past just being a "social thing." I closet binge. I always have. When life is falling apart, food has ALWAYS made me happy. It is just as intoxicating as any other drug. I forget about life, problems, relationships, work just by overfilling my stomach, multiple times a day. Again, just like with any other drug, the more the better. Portion control? Why would a crack addict portion themselves out 1 rock, when they have the means to smoke 4 rocks? Why stop at ONE fast food place, when LaPlace Louisiana has 10? Why stop when it makes me forget and comforts me like no person can?

I'll bet that at least 80% of you guys/gals that are reading this will think it's mumbo-jumbo. How can someone compare food to drugs...you can stop putting so much in your body! You can portion control! You can stop eating fast foods, junk foods, etc! You can have weight loss surgery and fix that!! To all of this, I say BULLSHIT. In fact the more I think about food and food addiction, the more I realize HOW MUCH HARDER it is to control food addiction than any other addiction. In fact, I'll walk the plank and say that food addiction is probably the HARDEST addiction to treat, harder than meth, alcoholism, etc. Fortunate for drugs that are physiologically addicting, there is a detox/withdrawal period. Once it is out of an addict's system, they don't PHYSIOLOGICALLY NEED the drug any longer. Opiate abusers HAVE to use, or they become ill with withdrawal symptoms. Alcoholics HAVE to use becasue they can go into DTs and seize. Detoxification FIXES this, and there is no longer ANY physiologic need to drink any longer. The body doesn't need it. Then starts the work on the PSYCHOLOGICAL component on why an addict uses.

Food, is another story. We HAVE to eat. Everyday. I have to deal with my number one drug every.effing.day. I have to sit and look at the one thing that has satisfied me like nothing else. But yet, I have to stay sober. I have to learn the one use for food--fuel to run my body. There is no withdrawing/detoxing from food for good. I have to be the alcoholic, sittng at the bar, ordering JUST ONE DRINK and fighting the temptation to use in extreme. To not get food-drunk. Skip the damn detox...send me straight to food rehab!!

Weight loss surgery? Heh...yeah, right! I worked in addiction medicine for right at 3 years. Guys, antabuse for most alcoholics DOES NOT WORK. It just doesn't. You can't treat an addiction JUST by making that addiction unpleasant. Being 300+ pounds isn't necessarily FUN for me, but I wouldn't call it UNPLEASANT all the time. I still live my life. Getting morbidly obese wasn't enough for me to quit my addiction. I am an addict. Alcoholics that want to drink stop taking Antabuse, simply put. If I had weight loss surgery, I would use any method necessary to get my fix. I'd spend thousands of dollars on medical bills to continue to be an addict. I'd drink the hot fluids to loosen my lap band so I can eat larger portions. I would restretch my gastric pouch a little at a time, risking perforation. I would completely screw up my surgery to still do what I do. That's what addicts do. Mind you, I also don't want the added illnesses/side effects, by rerouting my plumbing to cause vitamin deficiencies, by having surgery either. My body may be showing the signs of being morbidly obese, but it is really my head that is sick. (And for my friends who have had WLS and succeeded, I'm proud of you. There ARE overweight people that aren't food addicts. There are alcoholics who have used Antabuse and succeeded. That's not me.)

I'm writing this all down because for once in my life, I feel empowered. I'm empowered because I know who I am, for once. I can see my own writing on the wall. My journey is not one that is going be filled with fighting with insurance companies to approve me for surgery. It's not going to be dieting and restricting and looking at my favorite foods and obsessing about them. It's about womaning-up, struggling, discipline and temptation. It's about looking at my past and fixing the future. I need this...